attack

To break.

                I break. I lie against thy Heart.

Refuse thy hug?  was ne'er my true intent;

solely stark fear to close mine eyes tis why -

pray help me shake this plastic revery!

I hug thee; for e'er sorrow not to've touched;

our physicality doth terrify;

( this spindly thread by which I cling to Life,

to yield to your love, most surely, I should die)

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My Life's been kissed to glimpse these tortured times;

deep Mysteries surround my Soul's designs;

to Live beloved Lives, Love's spiraled streams...

but at this Moment:

My Heart pounds sinister Music

I pray for Reality's Magic 

Steel chains burn, sear, scorch my pale bare flesh!

~~~~~

Trees, Books, Cats, Birds, Food, Wine abound,

Gold - hewn Gifts to soothe an earth-grown body.

I see it all from my perch inside this plastic prison.

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My darling,

He invited me in to dine;

He waited, a gentleman true; he walked tallest 'mongst men;

He waited, unaware, for his SoulMate,

and I appeared,

 an Imposter

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luxurious inhalations; pure Dawn's roseate Air - (breathe breathe breathe!)

No longer mine.

now:

gifts for my hypocrisy: 

shivers shake me!

 In Moments, the throngs will view a stoning.

my flawed Humanity...

I beseech thee, forest goddesses,

your eyes upon me, ever watchful, kind,

even in my shame-stained plunge...

I beseech thee, angels mine:
combine my Mind, my flesh, my bones,

so that I may be round again

I shall be Better.

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My Life's been kissed to glimpse these tortured times;

deep Mysteries surround my Soul's designs;

to Live beloved Lives, Love's spiraled streams...

to Breathe, in Freedom, to glimpse Immortality....

I shall be better this Time.

 graces