Sterling Theda...Thank You, My Nina June 2010

and so I wear this silver Chai around my neck; on the back, mysteriously engraved:

Sterling

Theda

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We have been to explore my Nina's (grandma's) material things Today, in the house where I grew up. 

Life hurts so much sometimes.

My Nina left me so much more than her inexpensive tangible items.

She did, however, Gift me a telephone,via my mom.

I yearn to hear her Voice

I'm not myself, this Night, with her genes coursing through me, her voice in my head, 

a symbol around my neck of a religion I've not observed... 

Nina would understand, as I'm her 1st granddaughter. 

My *culture,* is always with me. She loved (loves) me unconditionally-I know that.  

She left here a magical necklace of charms which say, "Live, Laugh, Love" :) I know she smiles to see my neck encircled w/such Life 

Enough sad for me...what a Day. I send love to my friends! xoxo I am humbled & sad this Night,

while certain Joy always bubbles a bit below  

GoodDay/GoodNight, sweet Friends. 

A trusting glimpse into the Life of an insignificant girl,

who only wants to hug her Nina & hear her sing

& So she shall sing thru me.

Funny how expressions I'd long forgotten are actually in my Mind, 

emerging as I mommy my son.

Endangered language

I see I'm supposed to keep it Alive, this creole of beautiful Musical sounds.

I love you ForEver, My Nina, & we shall meet again.

How long does it hurt so? May 4, 2009.Some say I *should* be finished grieving...but I do it in spurts. I don't mean to be gloomy. So tired

I've written too much..but I've done it now. Thanks for reading. My Heart hurts, but feels Joy simultaneously; the Joy & Love I share w/you